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The Good Fight

I feel like a champion! Since becoming ill in 2001, I’ve never had a happier day than right now, at this very moment. In 2001, I was diagnosed with autoimmune conditions, which at the time felt like a life sentence. I was exhausted, I was depressed, every inch of my body hurt, and I could not see my way out of it. For me, it felt as though there was no light at the end of my tunnel. During my 11-year journey of many trials and tribulations, visits with every doctor from a general practitioner to an infectious disease specialist, rheumatoid arthritis, pulmonary, and even a dermatologist, I was left with no answers and no solutions. I was given advice like; you need to take these drugs, stop working out so hard, let’s increase these medications and even “we’re not sure we know how to help you anymore.” I sat quietly in my closet, tears running down my face, frustrated with where I was in life and with who I was becoming. Saddened by the fact that, I was withdrawing from my life, and that being alone seemed to be the only solution. It was in that moment of darkness; I decided it was all up to me. I needed to quit looking at doctors as gods. Each physician was trained in a particular area, but they never looked at me as a whole person. Never addressing all of the symptoms and issues with the possibility of them being connected to one another. I would be given a band-aid here and there, but in the end, the band-aid would begin to cause a whole new issue somewhere else. It was my body, and I needed to listen to, I needed to look inward instead of outward. I needed to be compassionate with myself. I spent many months tracking everything I had to drink or eat. I paid attention to how things made me feel, did I have a stomach ache, did that cause joint pain, did it give me a headache? After getting in tune with my body, losing 50 pounds and learning how to nourish and fuel my body instead of merely feeding my body. Soon, my blood markers began to correct themselves, and I truly felt a sense of relief. For several years I have wanted to shout “I have cured myself of autoimmune,” but my physician stated I was considered in remission because I still carried the antibodies. Well, today I was informed in regards to Sjogren’s, I no longer have the antibodies, I tested NEGATIVE. So today I am shouting, “I cured myself by losing weight and learning how to eat!”. One down five to go, I still carry antibodies/markers for Sarcoidosis, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Raynaud’s, Fibromyalgia and Autoimmune Hepatitis C. But I am in it to win it; I will be in this fight until I win.
Having an illness, whether it’s being diagnosed as a disease or even having digestion issues, wears you down emotionally and physically, but where there is a will, there is a way. We find a way throughout our lives to fit so many things in, but when it comes to our health of the mind and body, we choose to ignore it. As if the human body will fix itself without any effort, I am here to tell you; IT WILL NOT! We are the only one who is capable of creating change for ourselves. If you are tired of feeling lousy, having no energy and wishing things were different, then my advise to you is to take back the control. Invest in yourself the way you would for a family member, friend or even for work. Prioritize the importance of your mental state and physical being. Don’t just hit the gym and think that will solve the problems because if you’re not eating foods that are providing needed vitamins, mineral and proteins to help the body rebuild after you’ve torn it down in the gym – you are just adding to this vicious cycle. Take time to prep and plan your meals, take 10 minutes of your day to sit quietly in your thoughts or even to meditate. So many people long for someone to love or to call a friend, we need to stop looking outward and recognize we are that person. Enjoying yourself, being content, being happy and dedicated to your own needs will allow the rest of your life to fall into place. So my take away is this, don’t waste your energy trying to change, control or help others. Put that energy into yourself, allow yourself to live in a world that’s positive and you will see your world will become a better place.

Ideal Wellness

Ideal Wellness